too much responsibilities and responses frm ppl just start to turn me down frm all those. when i get tired every yr end, but pulled myself tgt again when no one's got the initiative, it just makes me wonder again n again who im doing it for. dont thank me when u havent felt my effort. its useless to use ur mouth to say, and end up with an empty talk. im too tired with all those. just keep to urself when u dont even mean it. its the word FRIENDS tat put me tgt again n again to think tat im doing it for FRIENDS. is it MY RESPONSIBILITY? pls think again. maybe itll be a regret for me to not meet up with every other one, or coordinate everyone for a meeting or gathering. but when things start to be taken for granted, it makes efforts look useless. if u think u can do it, pls take it up. stop the empty talk. if u think im just typing a piece of shit here, grumbling abt smth i've took up by myself, pls let me know. bc i really wanna know if its me, who's doing it for myself, or am i organising smth to gather everyone tgt.

when responsibility is all im left with, everything suddenly seems so heavy for me to take. bc im just someone who's mighty-less and perhaps smth tat is only worth a tiny living on this world no one really appreciates.

even with all these im taking, i know shan's shine will nv fade. bc im living for my own.