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Saturday, November 17, 2007, 2:27 PM
we're finally ova with CHEMISTRY! may this be the last time im gg to take a chemistry exam. (tat's if i dun retake)last paper in 4 days! phy p1, U'RE LAST!!!! celebration have alr started yest with dining at breeks, ngee ann city, with DJ MXS, jas n pam. food there's pretty good. n the "guest leaving!" greeting. =) went to window shop ard, and went to band's nite walk. we just stayed in the band store n chit chat. but it was great time spent. i fell aslp only at 5 this morning! 4 hrs of struggling between the mind n body. and woke up at 10! i think im just too excited about post As. 4 hrs of struggling between the mind n body brought me back in time to 6 yrs ago, when i was posted to pyss. started to get emo, n penned down my thots in my diary. some of what i've written: ... from the beginning of As, i've alr made up my mind to retake if i do badly. but its the obstacle of facing myself..., my family and relatives that r v stress. when derrick say that the results will be released in feb, i felt a shiver in my heart. the fear of getting my results, ... so many. so many ppl pin high hopes on me. but only those who know i didnt really study know what's gg on. the disappointment i get from daddy even b4 i take my results is great enuf to impact me. nevertheless... ... whatever i get in 3 mths from now, may not determine my future. but i believe everything happen for a reason. its destiny n fate that make us meet certain ppl in our lifes. and this applies to everything tat u experince in life. u're left to this destiny. if u have to make a choice. make the right one. if not, jus follow where God wanna bring u! ... my sec sch, the band, the jc. life may be all just full of coincidences. but when all these coincidences turned from hell to heaven, it makes me wonder if its really coincidences after all. the friends, the experiences, the memories, the lessons have brought me a long way... although all these seems lk regrets initially, it turned out to be a happy memorable ending for me. ... -end- as i read thru past entries, i came across smth this: "a girl who wishes to be small n powerless gets all mighty power to appear strong." maybe its all mighty powers that a girl gets, that make her wanna be small n powerless. we always think that the other side of the pasture is more beautiful. human. this entry is for my friends and family. thank u for making me who i am today. CHEERS! =) just look at what A levels have done to me. getting so emo... ♥ shanjoo
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