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Tuesday, September 25, 2007, 9:12 PM
it have been a tough journey.it have been a tiring journey. it have been a torturous journey. if u dont go through it, u may nv understand how we feel. how does it feel to fall from the top, to buttom? how does it feel to be unable to do ur best? how does it feel when u have to change a U to an A in 1 mth? im starting a journey of mission impossible. no. it's got to be possible. i have no choice left. "if u're dying for the grade, u have to get it!" no matter what background u come from, how rich or poor ur family is, whether u can go overseas to study, U R IN FACT DYING FOR THE A! if u get a U grade, where will u go? who wants u? u wanna go poly? retake As? or just be an O lvl grad all ur life? i knew i would perform badly. but the fact tat im at the bottom really struck me hard. i didnt cry in class or in school, becos i was somehow dumbfolded. i dunno how to express myself anymore. i have too many tiredness to overcome. i still have to keep tat laughter with me. i still need to put on tat "Shan's Smile". but shan's lost. but she knows she's got to pick herself up now. she's got to get tat A. even if she have to treat hl a big feast if she gets an A. she's gg thru too much today, she just need someone to listen to her cry. but, she cant find one. maybe she's lucky enuf to find 2 person tat can talk to her. chemistry is probably gonna be the BIGGEST JOKE in her life. Shan needs someone to cry to... tk u hl and cj. really. there's so many ppl in my life tat picked me up when im at the bottom. so many ppl gave me courage and strength, tat is enuf to motivate me move on these 2 yrs. these 2 yrs had been a journey far too tough for a 16, 17 yr old girl to go thru. but so many, really so many ppl gave her a hand when she fell into a well, she thought she will nv stand up. she created a miracle to hang on in mj, to get promoted in her promos, to be able to mix well in class, to get an A in pw, n magically an A in chi when she cannot even read or recognise them now. so i will repay everyone's kindness by studying really hard. i thought i may let everyone down during my O lvls. but my effort for 4 yrs had paid off. i have to create tat miracle and repay everyone these 2 mths. All the Best all A lvl folks! (can the guys in class stop playing mahjong n slp in lectures?) ♥ shanjoo
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